Motivation

For the past three weeks, I've lacked serious motivation to do anything. It was so bad that I really didn't have the stamina or motivation to read until last week. The first week after school finished, I came home from work, ate something, and then collapsed on the couch to watch some tv. Around 9 or 9:30 PM I would drag myself to my room and drop exhausted into bed. I had been pushing myself so intensely that when I stopped, I think my body and mind almost shut down. I couldn't will myself to do anything except what was absolutely necessary--working, eating, and sleeping.  

The second week, I added in watching some shows and movies. And playing Pottermore on Christmas Day.  But I still wasn't motivated because I had to be at work at 6 AM four out of my five working days. More family was around, so instead of crashing on the couch after work, I cleaned the kitchen and washed lots of dishes. (It was my goal to keep the kitchen as clean as possible during those crazy busy days when our house was packed with people. I think that when the kitchen is messy the rest of the house seems dirty which is why I wanted to keep the kitchen clean.) It wasn't until half way through the week that I started reading again, and I finally managed to read a whole book one night.

The third week, I started to read even more, and I became less of a hermit. I started thinking about all the things I needed to do, and how my six weeks off were flying by. I started lists in my mind and gathering information and mapping out what to do when. My first job was to get all of my contraband into one storage container instead of scattered all around my room. I also needed to do some major laundry and make preparations for the weekend. I was starting to feel bad about being the laziest person on earth, especially since Philip was busy preparing for his next semester. That is how bad it was--I didn't feel bad about my laziness until the third week. I finished the third week with an incredibly relaxing and enjoyable weekend at Joanna's where I was pretty lazy.

Today started the fourth week, and I woke up this morning motivated to work and organize. I purged my money papers, shredded what I didn't need, purged my clothes, hung up my new clothes, mailed a package, emailed people, did my laundry--all before noon. The lists of what I need to do are running through my head nonstop. On this weeks docket--volunteer at the library, work twenty-seven hours, read, purge my school papers, stamp my books, put all my new books on the bookshelf, make a trip to Bethesda to drop off clothes and books I don't need anymore, prepare for Little Lambs, clean out and organize my drawers, continue to memorize Ephesians, add to my resolutions list, workout, journal, blog, make a notebook for all of my loose leaf papers which are filled with my random thoughts and musings, write an introduction letter for student teaching, start planning my oceans science unit, and of course sleep some more. I think I'll have a very productive week.