On the eve of this tenth year anniversary, I can't help but remember, reflect and reminiscence.
This night ten years ago, I had no inkling of what the following day would bring and how my life path would forever be altered. You wouldn't think that such a seemingly small and insignificant change (to some people) would bring about such a change for the future.
Because of my age ten years ago, I don't remember all the hairy, gritty, nasty details. The Lord preserved me from that; I haven't had to deal and work through the bitterness and other struggles those I love have had to. That's not saying, I wasn't touched or left unscathed. I've had my own personal battles to overcome because of those first thirteen years of my life, yet I look back and I see the Lord's hand of preservation on my life. Those were not the struggles and battles I needed to fight or be aware of, and the Lord preserved me from noticing it all and letting it effect me.
I was sitting/sleeping in the same bed and in the same room I'm currently typing this post in. I don't even remember the preparation for the next day; in my mind, it was just going to be like all the other Sunday's of my life--I was dreading the long day and waiting for the day to be over even before it started. Whereas tonight, I spent my evening being convicted and blessed through a night of Bible study and prayer with my church family which I looked forward to all day.
That evening ten years ago, I had no purpose or direction in my life. None existed. Those were the years when I had one all consuming focus, and it wasn't serving and glorifying God with my life, and it didn't include any goals to achieve my focus. Tonight, I have a purpose and direction for my life. I'm a month away from moving away and out on my own to serve the Lord in a secular work place where the Lord has given me a burden to minister and build relationships. I have a life statement and purpose which I had never crossed my mind ten years ago.
As I sit here tonight remembering, reflecting, and reminiscing, I wouldn't change those first thirteen years no matter the hardships I faced, the trials and struggles which I went through because of that experience. I wouldn't change these past ten ones with all of the awkwardness I faced for the next five years (at least) as I started to learn who I was and what God's purpose and desire for my life was and for the past four-five years as I've been through another set of experiences. Through all the ups and downs, the highs and lows, the pros and cons, I've been molded and I'm being molded into Christ's image. The great thing about my molding is it's never done. I know these next ten years will bring with them their own set of hardships and experiences, and they'll all be tailored to mold me more in Christ's image and for His glory.
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