A Scrap of Paper

As I was moving bookcases today and filling up the moving trailer, I came across two of my scraps of paper which were filled with thoughts. One was me writing down my goals for the future. As I read through it, I couldn't stop thinking about how God has worked and lead in my life to this point. I wanted to share this scrap of paper with you, written out exactly as I wrote it a year and a half ago. So please pardon the bad grammar and sentence structure. What I found especially interesting is how I'm reaching my goals and plans I wrote out, but the order has changed and some areas have been eliminated as the Lord has revealed my next step. Other, however, are still firmly rooted.

02-16-12

2013, Graduate from college with an elementary education degree. 

I would like to teach overseas for at least 2 years and maybe up to 5.  

I would like to come back to the States and work in a public school in a city and get my Masters in Library Science and Technology.

I then want to get a job at a library specifically in a children's room.

During the years, I desire to work in a church--be a part of Bible Studies or run them. Work with children. Go on trips overseas. Witness to my coworkers and be Salt and Light in the world, to be with a body of believers fellowshipping and edifying one another. 

I don't know if that's where God will lead me, and I am ready and willing for the Lord to lead me in another area. Lord lead me where you will. I truly want to follow you, your will, and be Christ-like. I desire to use whatever money I make to support my church, missionaries, and other believers. I want to reach out to low-income families, to provide services to help them and their children. To work with children who struggle with reading. 

Lord, use me as you will! I give myself to you daily, I give you my body, I give you my health, I give you my relationship status, I give you my money, I give you my all because you deserve it all, you are worthy of all and it is what I can [give]. May your name be praised and glorified. 

My first profession, my calling is to be God's servant. That's my vocation, the methods and opportunities vary from person to person (job, specific focus), but we all have the vocation of serving and loving God with all of our heart, soul, and mind. 

My passion needs to be God-focused. He needs to be my focus as I minister toward others. 

I feel so inadequately equipped to carry out God's plan for my life. I'm so humbled that He has a specific plan for me. 

I do regularly give in to my sinful flesh because it's hard to battle it, and I can't seem to say no. But I'm not turning to God for the strength. I need to keep fighting, so God can continue to use me.