Ponderings

Do you ever wake up one day and truly think about your life? Are you ever amazed at where life has taken you? Do you slowly smile in wonderment at God's incredible leading and protection? Do you ever trace back the steps which got you to this point in your life? Do you ever look back and see how God directed you in each valley and mountain?

I love what I do. I love where God has moved me. I love how I'm growing in ways I've never grown. I love how God led me to this point of my life which shows me his incredible faithfulness.

I sit hear on Good Friday pondering God's work in my life. I ponder the family He put me in, the circumstances I went through as a child and young adult, the friends I didn't have growing up, and the abundance of friends I now have. I'm astounded that He chose to save me. I'm dumbfounded and saddened that I've wasted so many years of growth.

As I talk to the receptionist at the chiropractor, as I talk to the hair stylist, as I talk to my coworkers, as I teach my students, I realize that I'm starting to live out my faith, to be salt and light in my community. I'm not ashamed to say that I attend church, I'm not ashamed to read and study my Bible in the coffee shop, I'm not ashamed to tell my students and random people in the community that my name is from a town in the Bible.

The Lord is working in me. I'm growing and becoming bolder in my faith. I can't explain how it is all coming more naturally, but it's true. There's a freedom which comes from being open and honest about my beliefs and life. I couldn't go back to the way I was before.